Its annoying how exactly when your exams are around, your mind plays all possible tricks on you to stop studying (mine doesn't even have to work hard on that!). Sitting in my room, I conjure up images of how possibly everything in the world is wrong and will go wrong. Wading in self denial over the humonguos amount of reading that I need to get done, I distractedly watched outside my spacebox window. I looked at the river Dommel trickling by gently, the sun lazily setting its fiery wings behind the trees sorrounding the river and a lone cloud drifting across the horizon. It suddenly reminded me of this poem that I read in school (one of the very few) by William Wordsworth -
I Wandered Lonely As A Cloud
I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.
Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.
The waves beside them danced; but they
Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:
A poet could not but be gay,
In such a jocund company:
I gazed--and gazed--but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:
For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.
Well, my inner eye thankfully has stored if not in thousands but at least a hundred of "Daffodil" moments. Living alone can be a tricky thing. It gives you lot of freedom, time and space to do what ever you want, but not without a price (ya, the rent is high too!:)).
Right, back to work...go away you stupid cloud! :D